Intellectual Conversation

1220pm- Ever take a step back to look at a situation and then see it in a new light? Well that is what has been happening to me, when my friends weren't talking to me it made me step back and question everything and now that were on speaking terms again, i kinda wish we weren't. I know that sounds horrible and mean and I should be grateful that everything is working itself out but in the back of my mind I feel like I can't have a meaningful conversation. For example last night at dinner we were sitting in a booth and sitting at a table in front of us was my friends ex-boyfriend and his roommate (relationship did not end well), but we went on eating and he got a phone call and we could hear it and it was about a party he was having friday night and that it was going to be "awesome", anyway he left, didn't say anything to us and as soon as he was out of sight by friend starting going on about how he was only talking about the party so we could hear him and how she was trying to be the bigger person about the break up ya ya ya (FYI they broke up beginning of Jan 2012 so this has been going on a while). she was talking about how she was over him (and yet she still talks about him, deleted him off facebook then re-added him so she could "creep"). The whole time I was thinking "What is wrong with you?", and after that little rant she started talking about this other guy who she is (for lack of better word) obsessed with, and today at lunch she was going on about how found out that his brother was in her class and she actually took out her laptop in the middle of lunch to show us his FB profile. I sat there thinking and wondered if this was the kind of friend I want and yeah sure there are days that I want to rant about stupid stuff but it i not all the time. Most of the time I want to talk about the news of the day, for example this morning all i wanted to do was rant about the Super Tuesday results and I couldn't because they probably wouldn't want to. I just to have an intelligent conversation with someone, not a conversation about the face that someones brother is in your class.


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