8:50pm. So things have been pretty weird with my friends lately. Last week one of my friends Becca* and I had a falling out of sorts, long story short i did something i shouldn't have and i have since apologized but i feel like things still are not right. In our group it is me, Becca and this other girl Maddy* and we are all super tight but i feel ever since my mistake things have been weird. We don't hang out as a much and we rarely eat together anymore (we always did before) and i feel like they are both socially isolating me, edging me out of the group. I always feel like the the third wheel when im around them and I don't know what to do about it. I guess time heals all wounds but how long do i have to wait until its time to move on? I would be devastated to lose them as friends but im not sure how long i can take this, hopefully spring break will give us all some perspective.
But everything isn't so bad, got picked up at school by my friend who i haven't seen in a while and i gotta say it was nice to see her, to talk to her and tell her things and not feel judged. the strange thing is i feel more conformable talking to her about everything going on in my life than Becca and Maddy. Ahhhhh, why is life so messed up and full of drama? Anyway, g2g, early morning tomorrow got myself a 7am date with the treadmill.
love love love ttyl
TL
*= not their real names.
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