424pm- Sooooo i was planning on posting last night but i had a night class and by the time i got back i was just so sleepy that i couldn't bear the thought of turning on the computer and writing. So hear i am, it is a new day and if you didn't notice i deleted my last post about my situation with my friends because i thought things were getting back on track and it felt wrong to keep the post up. But like i said today is another day and things are not back to the way there were. I don't want to say we're not friends anymore because that seems so harsh but things have cooled off a bit and I need to accept the fact that we are not going to be close as they once were. Evidence: no more meals together(except the random times they just show up and ask to sit down) and thats another thing; they ASK if they can sit with me and i do the same with them; when did that start? we never did that before. Another piece of evidence is (and i know this will sound childish) but before the "incident" we were always posting and "liking" things on our Facebook walls, trading funny pictures back and forth, commenting on statues and talking on chat but those days are long gone. Another is they're leaving me out of things they do/plan to do and it makes me feel so unhappy, i mean i understand what i did was wrong but do i really deserve this? I'm not sure what to think and I'm having a hard time letting go.
Anyway on a more happy note today is National Pancake Day so enjoy all the pancakes you can eat. This week is a pretty busy week; got an essay due monday and a midterm on monday plus readings for other classes but never fear i wont let all that work stop me from blogging.
love love love ttyl
TL
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